Feedback: Yes please. All greatly received. Warnings: Slash fic. Disclaimer: I do not know anyone mentioned in this fic. It’s come from my own twisted mine etc AN: Thanks to Ange, my wonderful Beta without whom I’d be lost.
“Will you stop treating me like a child!” Hollered Nick.
“Well, stop behaving like one” AJ shouted back.
“What’s going on in here?” Kevin’s voice boomed around the room, making both men jump.
“Nothing” mumbled AJ, looking down at the floor.
“What do you mean nothing?” Snapped Nick. “He’s pissing me off.”
“Nick” warned Kevin
“Well, you did ask what was going on.”
“Nick” Kevin said again, his voice getting louder.
“He was treating me like a child again and I’ve had enough. I’m 19 years old dammit.”
“Nick. Go to your own room. Now” Kevin demanded.
“But...”
“No buts, just go. Don’t even think of locking the door either because you and I are going to have a little chat.”
Nick stood up and left, mumbling under his breath. He slammed the door on the way out and then leant against the wall opposite.
“You know what he’s like AJ” said Kevin. “Just ignore him.”
“I know Kev, but it’s so hard. He can be so childish.”
That was all Nick needed to hear. He always sensed AJ didn’t like him and now he knew for sure. He took a deep breath to calm himself down and then he made his way back to his own room. He locked his door behind him, ignoring Kevin's previous order, and then threw himself on his bed face down.
After a few minutes, Nick could hear Kevin’s footsteps coming down the corridor. When he reached Nick’s door, he knocked on it hard. Nick tensed up, but ignored the insistent knocking. Without further warning, Kevin used the spare key and was inside Nick’s room. “I thought I told you not to lock that door Nick” he said firmly. Nick lay still, not wanting another lecture. The next thing he knew, Kevin was gabbing his arms and turning him over to face him.
“I don’t expect to be ignored either.”
Nick looked up into the angry green eyes that were staring down at him. “Fuck off Kevin!” He spat. “I don’t need another lecture. I know you all hate me because I still act childish sometimes but in case you didn’t notice, my childhood was spent in this band, so excuse me for wanting to hold onto it.”
Kevin’s eyes softened as he realized how upset Nick was. He sat down next to him and wiped away the tears Nick hadn’t even realized he was crying. “I’m sorry Nick. I didn't realize you felt that way,”
Nick shrugged and turned back over onto his stomach.
“We don’t all hate you either”
“AJ does I heard him.”
“Come on Nick you don’t believe that. AJ only said that because he was angry. No one hates you.”
“You do. You all do” he mumbled against the pillows. “You’re always moaning at me to behave more like an adult. Well, maybe I don’t know how to.” He felt the bed move as Kevin got up. Nick closed his eyes, praying that Kevin had taken the hint and would leave. He heard something drop onto the floor softly and then the bed dipped letting him know Kevin was still there. He flinched when he felt Kevin kneel over the backs of his thighs.
“Relax Nick” he whispered into his ear, before he started massaging his shoulders.
After a few minutes Nick still felt uptight and upset, so he shrugged his shoulders as a sign for Kevin to stop. “Take your shirt off and turn over” Kevin said softly.
“Why?”
“Don't question me. Just do it.”
Nick sighed and then lifted his body so he could remove his shirt and then he turned over to face Kevin. His eyes bulged as he realized Kevin had taken off his own shirt and then he felt a tightening in his groin when Kevin settled himself back down onto his upper legs. He closed his eyes and kept repeating in his head: Adults don't get hard by other men.. Adults don’t get hard by...
His eyes flew open as Kevin's mouth came into contact with his own. He pulled away quickly hoping that Kevin wouldn’t feel just how hard he was. “What are you doing?” he mumbled.
“I'm teaching you how to be an adult Nicky. Think you can handle it?”
Nick squirmed under Kevin's gaze. “I know how to fuck Kevin. I’m not that stupid.”
He tried to roll out from underneath the older man but Kevin pushed his hips further into Nicks and leaned down so their faces were merely inches apart.
“Ah, but have you ever been with a man?”
“I, uh, well” he stuttered. His eyes locked on Kevin's lips that were in touching distance.
“Well?” Pushed Kevin.
“No, but what has that got to do with me being an adult?”
Kevin leant down and licked the outside of Nick’s ear before whispering: “I’ve seen the way you look at me.” Nick shivered.
“So?”
“So, are you man enough to do anything about it?”
Nick looked up into Kevin's piercing green eyes, thinking about what he’s just said. It was true. Nick couldn’t help watching him when he was around. He was so confident and manly. For a long time nick had wanted to like Kevin but as he grew older he realized he didn't want to be like him any more. He wanted him.
Kevin watched as Nick's eyes flickered in thought. He looked so far away yet so close all at the same time. He’d wanted Nick for a long time but had always refused to act on it. He didn’t want to spoil him or influence him in any way, so he’d busied himself with being the older brother to him instead. That was until now. Kevin had taken a chance by doing this, hoping that Nick's feeling mirrored his own.
“Show me how adult you are Nicky. Make love to me.”
Nick felt all his blood rush down to his groin at Kevin's words and his mind was scrambled with mixed emotions and thoughts. Then it dawned on him. “I, I don’t know how” he stuttered, looking down at his lap and blushing furiously.
Kevin leant down and kissed him lightly on the forehead. “Then let me show you.”
He gently pulled Nick’s chin up so that he was looking him in the eyes, silently asking for permission. Nick nodded and leaned up to meet Kevin's lips. As soon as their lips touched, Nick’s arms went around Kevin's neck, pulling him in closer. Kevin wasted no time. He ran his tongue along Nick’s lips and then gently nibbled on his bottom one. Nick got the hint and opened his mouth so Kevin could slip his tongue inside.
After a heated battle for control, Kevin pulled away. “Get undressed now” he said, his breathing erratic.
“Uh Kev, I uh, can’t do that with you sitting on me.”
“Oh yeah, sorry.” He rolled off Nick and sat next to him, watching as he fumbled with the zipper on his jeans. When he was done he lent back down on the bed. Kevin ran a hand over Nick’s face and then kissed him softly.
“You’re so beautiful Nicky” he mumbled. Nick could feel himself blushing again and subconsciously held his hands in front of his stomach.
“You’re a bit overdressed Kev” Nick said quietly, feeling a little embarrassed.
Kevin looked down and then nodded in acknowledgement. He quickly undressed and then settled himself back down on top of Nick, who groaned at the contact of bare skin. Kevin shifted his hips closer to Nick’s so that they could both feel each other’s arousal. Kevin sat looking at Nick for the longest time, taking in every detail so he could remember this night perfectly. Nick shifted under Kevin's stare and tried to cover himself with his hands.
“What are you doing Nick?”
“Uh, nothing.”
“Tell me you haven’t been reading those stupid messages on the internet again.”
“No,” he replied, looking away from Kevin.
“Nick, look at me” he said while taking Nick’s hands in his own. “There is nothing wrong with your body. You’re beautiful so don’t take any notice of anyone else. You have no need to hide your body.” He tried moving Nick's hands away from his stomach, but he wouldn't let him. Kevin looked at Nick confused and worried. “What’s wrong Nick?”
“How can you say all that about me Kev? You’re perfect. You’re the one everyone admires and lusts after. I can’t compare to that.”
“You don’t have to compare yourself to anyone Nicky. You’re the most beautiful man I’ve ever met.”
“What if you go off me or find someone better?” He asked. He knew Kevin would probably yell at him for saying that, but he had always been insecure about himself and needed confirmation he was loved.
“I would never leave you now that I’ve got you” Kevin said, immediately knowing Nick’s fears. “How could I ever get tired of this body?” He added, running his hands up Nick’s chest to his nipples. He bent down and flicked his tongue out over one of them, eliciting a moan from Nick. He worked his way down Nick’s body, kissing and licking until Nick was squirming underneath him.
“Kev” he hissed. His eyes were closed and his head thrown back into the pillow.
“What Nicky?”
He could feel Nick’s arousal on his chin.
“Do something. Suck me, fuck me, anything, please” he begged.
“No,” Kevin said firmly, sitting up. Nick’s eyes flew open in shock, and the hurt was clear in his eyes. His heart was racing and he knew he was shaking.
“Wha...?” Was all he could manage to say.
Kevin knew he had to act quickly before Nick bolted. He bent back down and took Nick’s face in his hands.
“I’m not going to fuck you, Nick. You’re going to make love to me.”
He watched as confusion and then understanding crossed Nick’s face.
“But how...” Kevin kissed Nick into silence and then rolled them over so that he was now under Nick. He reached into the side drawer and then handed Nick the lube he’d spotted in there earlier. He saw the nerves etched into Nick’s features.
“Just do what you know feels good” he said, giving Nick a comforting smile.
Nick could feel himself shaking as he squeezed some lube into his hands; Kevin's earlier words repeating in his head.
‘Show me how adult you are Nick, make love to me.’
Nick knew he could do this. After all, he had wanted it long enough. He rubbed some lube over his throbbing cock and then quickly threw the tube on the floor. When he thought he was covered enough, he looked up at Kevin who was now on his hands and knees, ass in the air.
“As much as I love seeing your ass Kev, I’d rather you be on your back.”
He smiled at Nick as he settled himself on his back with his knees bent. Nick moved closer to him and then slid two fingers into Kevin's puckered hole. He grinned when Kevin moaned and closed his eyes. “More Nicky” he mumbled, pushing down onto Nick’s hand.
He slid in another finger and then moved them around, happy when Kevin was squirming beneath him. He knew Kevin had probably done this before so he stopped wasting time. He pulled his fingers out and pushed his tip against Kevin's hole. He took a few seconds to compose himself and then pushed himself into Kevin until his balls touched Kevin ass. Kevin groaned loudly.
“Go slow Nicky” he panted. “Never done this be...” Nick gasped before he could finish.
“I’m so sorry Kevin” he babbled. “I thought you’d... Oh God, did I hurt you?” Kevin looked up and saw the panic in Nick’s eyes.
“I’m ok. Honest. Now, if you don’t start moving soon I might have to hurt you.”
“Are you sure I didn’t hurt you? I’m so sorry, I...”
“Nick” he said firmly. “I’m fine. Now please, move.” He wiggled his hips to prove his point causing Nick to groan. He pulled out slowly and then pushed back in as far as he could.
“Jesus Kev” he moaned. “So tight.”
“More Nicky, harder” mumbled Kevin.
Beads of sweat rolled down Nick’s body as he set up a fast pace. He could feel himself almost at his peak, but Kevin was not even close. He looked up at Kevin who had his eyes closed and was mumbling something. Unsure of what to do he grabbed Kevin's hips to get more leverage and then he slammed back into him. Kevin howled and arched off the bed.
“Shit. Do that again” he panted.
“What was that?” He asked, stopping his movement completely.
“That my dear boy was heaven.”
“But...”
Kevin reached down in between them and rubbed behind Nick’s balls until he found what he was looking for. He pressed it firmly and watched at Nick’s face flushed red with pleasure.
“Now whatever you just did, do it again” he said, thrusting his hips up to meet Nick’s.
Nick complied eagerly; thrusting into Kevin like it was his last day on earth, hitting his prostate repeatedly.
“Oh God Nicky, so close.”
Nick groaned in response and pushed into Kevin once more sending them both over the edge. They collapsed onto the bed in a tangled mess of body parts. “You were amazing Nicky” Kevin said, wiping the sweat off from his face.
“Are you going to leave me now?” Nick asked so quietly that Kevin wasn’t sure if he even heard it. He sat up quickly, staring down at him like he had two heads.
“Why on earth would I do that?”
“Well, that’s what adults do isn’t it? They fuck and then they leave.”
“Not all of us are like that Nick. Oh, and for your information that was not just any old fuck. That was making love and no one walks out after doing that.” Nick nodded and looked away from Kevin.
He immediately knew what Nick was thinking and pulled him down onto the bed with him. He spooned behind him and put his arm around his waist possessively.
“I don’t ever intend on leaving you Nick. You’re mine now” he whispered in his ear, making Nick shiver.
“Promise?”
“I promise.” Satisfied with the answer, Nick closed his eyes and fell asleep comfortably in Kevin's embrace.