Two months had passed since Brian had split up from the love of his life. The first few days without him had been hell. It seemed like everything he saw, everything he heard and everything he felt reminded him of Nick. All those memories he once had cherished, they now were a constant reminder of what he had lost. He probably would have drowned in that sea of sadness, done something stupid had it not been for AJ. Calling him had been the best choice he could have made.
Alex had not hesitated to come over after Brian had told him what happened. Then he had just been there for him. He had given him everything that he had needed. First he hold onto him, when Brian needed a shoulder to cry on. Then he brought ice cream and an open ear. For hours he had just listened to Brian as he talked about his lost love. Finally he had decided to try and distract him from his sadness. 'There are other fish out in the water. Don't stop living your life!', he still remembered those words. AJ had spoken them a month ago, when he had first convinced him to join his night of clubbing.
Partying had always been something his younger friend had enjoyed, but now that he had lost his job, he was out every night. For some reason he must have thought that doing the same was exactly what Brian needed. And he had not been wrong. While Brian had been skeptical at first, he soon realized how much relief going out with Alex brought to him. The loud music in the club was distracting, it made his body move and pushed bad thoughts away. And if any remained the booze that ran in rivers did the rest to clear his mind. At first Brian had been careful with how much he drank, but when he noticed how much better it made him feel, he forgot all of his inhibitions. AJ wasn't someone to hold back either. So each night left the former Backstreet Boys rather buzzed. It didn't take long for the drinking to become a habit and so they became regulars in quite a few nightclubs.
The one they visited tonight was called 'Rivers', after its owner. It was one of their favorites. The music was great as were the drinks. The place had three floors. Floor 1 was where techno played and pushed the guests to dance their soul out. Floor 2 was the punk floor, which AJ and Brian had frequented a lot in the beginning, when he still felt, that he needed to let his aggression out. Finally there was Floor 3, where they were hanging out today. It was the floor where pop music played. It was kind of odd to hear the music of some of these artists. When they had still been touring Europe they had met a few of them. They had been part of that elite group of famous pop artists that everyone loved. Now it felt like they were forgotten. It didn't matter, that they had shared a stage with the Spice Girls, because while the girls still were famous, Backstreet was not. And while in Europe they at least might have been recognized, barely anyone knew them here. Of course this was sad, but it also meant that they had a lot more freedom to do and be what they wanted and they enjoyed every bit of it.
They had already spent about two hours in this place and Brian could feel the world starting to spin. Rum did that to him, it was his favorite drink. He did never consume it pure, he always had it in some kind of cocktail. AJ was always teasing him for it. 'You have some girlish drinking habits.", his words echoed in his mind and Brian couldn't help but grin. Alex was more for the clear drinks, vodka in particular, but Brian hated it if he could taste the alcohol. He enjoyed it to get buzzed together, but right now AJ was not with him.
About ten minutes ago he had left to go to the toilet, leaving Brian all alone at the bar. It was not like he was scared to be alone, but he hoped his friend would come back soon, because he felt uncomfortable. There was a girl staring at him and he could feel it very clearly. From the corner of his eyes he could see her. The girl that had been staring at him for half an hour. As soon as AJ had left she had moved closer to him, taking the stool right next to him. There she had sat in silence ever since. It was rather unsettling how she was checking him out and Brian tried his best to ignore her, by staring at his drink as if it was the most interesting thing in the world. It was not like this woman wasn't attractive. She was quite alluring with long wavy black hair, that framed a pale face. She wore red lipstick that stood in contrast to her blue night-dress. No, she was anything but ugly, but Brian was not into women. They scared him, even more so ever since he had seen how crazy they could become, when they were fans of something. He prayed to god, that she would notice how very much not interested he was, but seemingly that prayer was left unanswered. When he was about to stand up in an attempt to flee from her staring eyes, she put a hand on his leg. Brian gasped. "Darlin' won't you like to stay a little bit longer? I've been watching you all night. You're the best looking guy in the club.", she was speaking in a low voice, it was obvious that she was trying to seduce him. But with her hand on his leg like that she scared him more than anything else. "Sorry not interested.", Brian responded the words escaping his throat in a slur, but quite a bit faster than he had planned to. He was starting to panic. But the woman was not easily shaken off "Are you sure?", she asked and moved her hand up along his thigh. This was wrong, she was molesting him. For a moment he froze unsure what to do. If it had been a guy, he would have had no problem pushing him off, but he couldn't just grab a woman by a wrist and possibly hurt her, could he? Unsure he just kept staring at the woman's hand on his leg, tensing up his body. "Please leave me alone!", he finally decided to use words to get her to stop, but she ignored him. After he spoke she only moved her hand up further. She came dangerously close to his groin, when suddenly someone pulled her away from him.
"What you think you doing there bitch? He told you to leave him alone!", it was AJ. Thank god, he had finally come back and now he was holding that woman by the wrist of the hand that had just touched him, pulling her away from him. Brian noticed, that the woman wanted to protest, but when she saw the glare in AJs eyes she ducked and turned around, wisely leaving the scene.
A sigh of relief escaped his throat: "Thank you Aje.", then he stood up to give his friend a hug. As soon as he left his sitting position it became evident to him how many drinks he already did have. Instead of walking to Alex, he nearly stumbled into him. He chuckled lightly as AJ caught him with a laugh. "Wow, careful there soldier! Don't want to have you falling on the ground.", he spoke as he patted Brian's back gently in the hug. As he let go of him he examined him critically: "Can't leave you alone, can I Rok?", he shook his head a little and Brian sighed, "Well you can, but I don't like it.", he admitted and made a few steps back to the bar to grab his drink from the counter. "What took you so long anyway? Nobody takes ten minutes for a piss." Brian smirked when an idea came to his mind before he spoke on, "Met someone you like or something?" AJ shook his head then moved a bit closer towards him again. When he was right in front of him, he pulled a little plastic bag from his jacket. It contained a pill with a funny face on it. Brian didn't need to ask what it was, he knew. He had read enough about it to recognize it. When AJ pushed it into his hand he widened his eyes. "What the fuck, Aje?! That's Ecstasy.", he was in shock, but as soon as he spoke that out his friend put a finger on top of his lips: "Shh... do you want to get us in trouble Rok?", he looked around warily for a moment. When his eyes came back to meet Brians he stared into them:
"It is... you have to try it. I just did, it makes you feel so good. Much better than alcohol.", and when AJ spoke those words Brian noticed it too. The way his pupils were so small in the darkness of the club, it wasn't natural. He shook his head firmly, not sure what to think about AJs suggestion. "I... dunno Aje. Drugs are bad, they make you sick and stuff.", he gave his friend a worried look, but he still hold onto the plastic bag. "Dude, it's not bad, it's phenomenal. Alcohol makes you feel sick and you obviously don't mind that either. Please Brian, try it. If you don't like it you have to never take it again, but I want you to see this. The world never was so beautiful." Brian took a deep breath, sharply so. He was no fan of drugs, but AJ was right, alcohol did make him feel sick as well. And what would it hurt to try it once? It was not like he had to take it every day. But what was about addiction? Didn't you get addicted to drugs rather quickly?
"Rok, please. Let's have some fun together. I want you to be on my level. It will help you to forget about Nick." The longer AJ pleaded, the lower Brians defenses got. He could understand his friends need to share this experience, it felt better to be on the same level. It was that way with alcohol as well. And everything Alex had suggested to him, since Nick left had made him feel better. Finally his last sentence lingered on his mind. Would it really make him forget about Nick? That had been something he had tried for weeks, but no matter how buzzed he got, in the night the memories still came. Sleeping had been a problem for months, because thoughts of Nick just didn't leave him alone. It couldn't hurt to try this medicine.
AJ had convinced him and after a moment of silence he opened the plastic bag and pulled out the pill. He looked at it for a moment, eyeing the smiling face that was staring back at him. "Alright...", he finally stated and put the pill into his mouth, flushing it down with a sip of his drink. "I hope you are right Aje!", he spoke when the pill hit his stomach. Alex answered by taking away his drink and putting it back onto the bar. Then he grabbed Brian's wrist and dragged him along towards the first floor: "Let's go dancing!", he smiled brightly, obviously delighted by Brian's decision. But there was something else in that smile, that he did not really understand. As they made their way to the techno-floor Brian had a hard time to walk straight. Thanks to the rum the world was still spinning around him. Luckily AJ was holding him pretty firmly, so every time he stumbled his friend just pulled him straight again.
"Do you feel it yet?", Alex asked, when they reached the dance floor. Thoughtfully Brian looked around. Did he feel it? He felt dizzy and light-headed, but that was something that the alcohol did to him. So he shook his head as he raised his voice "Not really, no" - "You will soon!", AJ seemed to be rather confident as he pulled him along the last steps towards where the crowd was dancing. "Just give yourself to the feels!", his younger friend said with a wide grin, then he started to dance. After a moment of hesitation Brian joined him. What did he mean with feels? What was he feeling? He looked at Alex thoughtfully for a while as he started to move his body. Weird, had he always been that good at dancing? His movements were fascinating, they seemed so fluid. Too fluid. When he realized the drug was starting to work, he could not help but grin. AJ had been right, this felt phenomenal. He felt as if a whole new energy shot into his body. It made him want to dance and it made him want to feel. Everything suddenly was so intense. For a while Brian could only stare up towards the lights dancing above his head. "Wow...", it escaped his throat. He wanted to say more, but the words were forgotten when he suddenly felt something. Alex had come closer and was now grinding up against him. What was that? Was he trying to come on to him? That thought only stayed a second until it was pushed away by euphoria. This felt good. He never had felt something this intense. Every time AJs body brushed up against it, it felt like tiny tickling explosions all over his body, he didn't want him to stop. "AJ. This is so good.", he told his friend as he looked away from the lights down towards him. "Right?", and AJ smirked putting his right hand in the small curve of Brian's back pulling him closer.
When their bodies touched, Brian noticed, that the lust his younger friend felt had not only made its way towards his eyes. As AJ pushed up against him he could clearly feel that he was sporting a rather prominent hard-on. He couldn't hold back a moan as he felt it. What was happening? Why did he like it? Was that the drugs messing with his mind? It felt hard to make any clear thought right now. After a moment the drug already had made him forget all his worries. This felt so good. Suddenly he followed the urge to grind back up against AJ, burying his head against his neck. He gasped when he noticed, that he was getting hard himself. "Not bad Rok!", Alex spoke in half a moan as he felt what was happening. When their hard cocks rubbed against each other through their clothes AJ brought one hand down towards his butt to squeeze it. "So intense...", he mumbled and pulled away a second later, leaving Brian confused. "Aje.", he gasped obviously surprised. Part of him still felt weirded out by all this, but the overpowering intense emotions created by the drug drowned all of that. Alex winked at him as he stared into his eyes, then leaned closer to put a gentle kiss onto his lips. It didn't last long and Brian did not really taste him, but their lips touching one another felt completely different to how it felt with Nick. With Nick, he had felt his heart racing, with AJ, he only felt lust. Tickling wild lust that made him hum in an aroused fashion. "Come with me Brian!", as he spoke he winked towards him and took him by the hand. Then he just pulled him along, across the dancefloor through the corridors out of the club. "Where we going?", he couldn't help but be mildly confused, but his friend only grinned, "To your car. Let's have some fun.", and Brian knew exactly what he meant. When they reached his truck Brian opened it, but it was AJ who entered first. Alex took the back row of seats, then pulled him inside as well. A moment later Brian had straddled him, his legs on both sides of AJs waist. This was going to be interesting.
Driven by desire AJ pushed his hip upwards lightly, making Brian gasp, when their cocks touched once again. "C'mon Bri, you know how to do this.", he gave a provoking smirk and Brian groaned. He was right, but this was different. This was not Nick, this was AJ and right now he felt everything three times as intense as he normally did. The pure lust was clouding his mind. When AJ circled his hip a second time, he couldn't hold back anymore. With a groan he moved in closer and grabbed AJ by his wrists.
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"That's it.", AJ moaned as he felt Brian finally starting to take initiative. How often had he heard him and Nick having sex before? Whenever they were in their hotel room, they never had hold back. And AJ had heard it all through those thin walls some of these places had. For a long time he had not admitted it, but over time it had become evident. All those times he had heard Nick moan under Brian's touch, AJ had dreamed that it was him. He wanted to be the one that Rok loved, that made his world spin, but he never did get the chance. Now it was finally his time.
As Brian took control of the situation AJ gasped for air. This was so sexy, he never had been dominated by anyone. He would not allow anybody else to do it either, but Brian was special. When he yanked down the jeans and boxers AJ was wearing as if it was nothing he pushed up against him again. This was taking too long, he wanted him so badly, wanted him now. "Fuck me Bri...", it escaped his lips. He didn't care if he sounded desperate, he didn't care if he begged. This had to happen, now. Brian growled, obviously as controlled by lust as he was. Then he spun him around turned him onto his belly. Never before had AJ experienced his older friend like this. He had always been gentle and kind towards him. Of course he had been different to Nick and he knew that as well, but he had never experienced it himself. It was the hottest thing he had ever known. Dominant Brian was making his heart race and he wasn't holding back. As the older mans body rubbed up against him AJ noticed, that Brian had removed his pants as well. He could feel the flesh of his hard cock pressing against his legs. "We have no lube..", Brian grumbled in half a moan, but he did not seem that bothered by it. Before AJ could answer he had spit on his asshole. As degrading as that felt, he couldn't deny it was sexy as well. Brian wanted him so badly, that he was willing to do something like that. Alex could not stop himself from blushing as he moved his body to bend his ass upwards a bit.
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He couldn't believe how needy Alex was acting. Of course he felt it as well, the pure lust mixing up with the intensity Ecstasy created. It was driving him wild. But with AJ being that needy, he reminded him a little of Nick. Nick. When his mind drifted off towards the man he had loved so much, he remembered the many nights they had shared. All those things they had done, the harmless stuff and the crazy and kinky shit. He loved it when they got wild, loved to see the expression on Nick's face when he was about to come. Sometimes Brian had stopped just in that moment, to torment him just a little. Then he had made him beg. Just thinking of it made his cock get even harder. Nick had begged just like AJ. Only as he pressed his cock up against the younger mans asshole, he noticed the difference. Alex was tight, really tight. It was obvious that he never had anal sex before. While that tightness felt really good on his cock, he also knew it would be painful for his friend. "Don't stop...", and yet it seemed like AJ wanted it that way. Brian would not disappoint him. So with a strong push he pressed himself all up inside him. The younger man squirmed under the thrust and he hissed in pain, but if he had gone any slower, the pain would only have lasted longer. Perhaps it felt painful now, but he knew it soon would fade. And yet it felt bad to have AJ whimper like that, he had to do something to make him feel better. So as he pulled back out of his friend again he reached one hand around him to grab his cock.
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When Brian thrust into him it hurt. The pain was so strong that it went right into his stomach. Still, it was just what he wanted. Behind the pain was only pleasure. And he couldn't wait for it to capture him. The way he felt with the Ecstasy traveling through his veins it would probably be the best kind of pleasure he ever felt. And he wasn't wrong. When Brian grabbed his shaft and started to rub it, the feeling was so strong that it made him feel dizzy. It felt so good, that it was able to numb the pain that came back when Brian thrust in again. Pain and pleasure were mixing up in a weird cocktail that made all his senses light up in high alert. "Brian!", he couldn't help but to moan out his name. The older man was giving him so much. Seemingly enticed by this Brian grabbed his waist firmly with both hands and increased his speed.
If AJ had felt good before he now felt as if he was in heaven. With every thrust the pain lessened making room for more pleasure. With every thrust Brian also rubbed and squeezed AJ's cock. The dizziness of pleasure coming from both sides of his body was clouding his mind and his eyes were glazed by lust, both of their eyes were. He did never want this to end. And yet, the drug that was running through their bodies made everything so intense, that it was hard to last long. Brian was the first who came, moaning loud but with a low growl. Even as his cum started to fill AJ up, Brian didn't stop to rub Alex's manhood. In fact he only increased the speed in that he was rubbing and a moment later Alex couldn't hold back any longer either. As he came onto the row of seats below him AJ let out a cry of pleasure, before he collapsed in exhaustion, loosing all tension in his body.
He was breathing heavily when his older friend pulled out of him. A second later AJ felt Brian's weight falling on top of him. It was a bit of a struggle, but with a little bit of effort Alex managed to turn around. He wanted to look into Brian's eyes. And as he met them all he saw was happiness. Brian smiled and AJ couldn't hide his secret any longer. In a mere whisper he spoke the three words, he had wanted to say for so long: "I love you."