I never imagined I would wake up beside Kevin the next morning. I wondered briefly when he had come in. After our “talk” the night before Kevin had left again. I stayed up waiting for him until about ten. I had just gotten into bed, when I got another phone call where no one answered.
I had called Aaron and gripped him out, only to find out it wasn’t him doing the calling. It was really starting to annoy me.
I untangled myself from Kevin’s embrace and made my way into the bathroom. After I relieved myself I hopped into the shower. I wondered why Kevin had decided to stay with me. He had made it painfully obvious he didn’t want to be with me the night before. It still hurt thinking about what he had said, so I tried to focus on everything but that. I just wished Kevin could see how much I loved him. I would do anything to get him to love me.
I hurried to finish my shower. I wrapped a towel around my waist and walked back into my bedroom. I glanced at the bed and noticed that Kevin had left. I sighed in frustration and slipped into a t-shirt and a pair of sweatpants. I was brushing the tangles out of my hair when Kevin walked in.
“We need to talk,” he said nervously, I glanced up from the mirror and saw exactly how nervous he really was. He kept shifting his weight back and forth from one side to the other, and he was playing with his fingers My stomach filled with butterflies and I wondered what he needed to talk about. I couldn’t get my hopes up though so I swallowed hard before I answered him.
“Ok Kev,” I said as I got up and sat on the bed. Kevin closed the door and sat across from me on the bed. He picked at the sheets for a few minutes before he began to speak.
I watched his fingers as he bunched up the sheet then smooth it out again. I covered hi hand with my own. Kevin’s eyes met mine. I gasped softly as I saw how much love and pain there was in his emerald eyes.
“I love you,” Kevin said softly.
I felt my heart speed up and start to pound in my chest. The butterflies in my stomach started dancing. I knew Kevin wasn’t finished so I say quietly hoping he would say what I desperately needed to hear.
“I love you so much Nicky,” Kevin said his eyes locking mine in an intense gaze. “I’ve tried everything to ignore it. I denied it for the longest time, telling myself it was nothing more than brotherly love, but it’s so much more than that Nicky,”
“I know Kev, I feel the same way. I’ve loved you for the longest time/ Even before Alex. I told myself you would never care about me that way so I did everything I could to hide my feelings. I still love you. You mean the world to me Kevvy,” I said my eyes filling with tears.
I never dreamed I’d hear Kevin tell me he loved me the way I loved him. I scooted closer to Kevin until I was straddling his lap. I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him close to me.
“I love you so much baby,” Kevin whispered before he kissed me gently. I wrapped my fingers in his hair and pulled him as close to me as humanly possible. You could barely tell where one of us ended and the other began. I felt like for once everything was exactly how it was meant to be.