I laid on the floor for the longest time before I had the strength to lift myself up and struggle to the bathroom. I leaned against the sink as I got a washrag to wipe away the dried blood from my lip. My left eye was swollen and my face was red and blotchy. I lifted my shirt to see my chest covered in bluish black bruises from where he kicked me. It wasn’t as bad as I thought it would be.
I washed my face and managed to get back to the living room to change clothes. It was hard to breathe and my head was pounding. I felt dizzy when I walked.
I quickly changed clothes and laid down on the couch. I fell asleep rather quickly forgetting about the nightmare I was living in. I woke up a couple hours later when Alex came back from breakfast. I heard him before I saw him. I could here him banging around in the bedroom and cursing because he couldn’t find something. I closed my eyes and willed myself not to cry. It seemed like every time he was near he sent me into a fit of tears.
“Just going to lay around and sleep all day you worthless piece of shit!” Alex yelled at me as he came back into the living room.
He stood over the couch and looked down on me. I tried to hide my face but he grabbed me by the hair and yanked my face up.
“You hurt me and it’s hard to move,” I said quietly.
I knew it wasn’t what he wanted to hear but I didn’t know what else to say. I didn’t know what he wanted out of me.
“I didn’t hurt you before. I just threw you around a little. You want me to hurt you, I’ll show you what real pain is like whore,” Alex yelled as he pulled me off the couch.
I tried to shove him away but he grabbed my arm and twisted it behind my back. I cried out in pain and fell to my knees. I felt tears prick the insides of my eyelids. I tried not to cry because I knew it only set him off more but I didn’t succeed.
The tears came in steams. He kicked me in the back and I fell helplessly to the floor. I smacked my head on the corner table and I could feel the blood trickling down my forehead. He kicked me once more in the ribs and punched me in the face. He hit my right eye and I felt pain in all areas of my body.
“Don’t ever tell me I hurt you, you don’t know how real pain feels. Your boyfriend missed you at breakfast Nicky. Well this one didn’t the guy your cheating on me with did though. Poor Kevin he doesn’t know how fat and worthless you are. Don’t think he’d love you too much then.” Alex smirked and laughed a little.
“I’m going to the sound check, better not be late for the concert Nicky, wouldn’t want to make Kevvy mad now would we? He might just punish you like I do,” Alex sneered as he left the room.
Twice in one day.
That was like some sort of record. I don’t know how much more I can take I thought. I had to find a way out of this nightmare that’s taken over my life before I do something crazy.