Pairing(s): Nick/Kevin Rated: R Chapters: 4 Completed: Yes Originally Published: Early 2000s
Nick's POV
I sat at the window seat staring out into the ocean. It was storming really bad. The weather that described my feelings. I felt like my world had collapsed around my shoulders.
Kevin was getting married. He was throwing away our whole relationship. Everything we worked hard to create. He was going to marry his high school sweetheart, Kristin.
I thought he loved me! He told me time and time again I meant more to him than life itself. I loved him more than I ever imagined possible. I couldn't see my life without him, but I'd have too. He hurt me so much but yet I still wish he would come back to me. I wish one morning I could open my eyes and see him lying next to me. Noting would make me happier than to have him back in my arms again.
He was my life, my soul, and my love. He was my Kevin. I have no idea how I'm going to be able to work with him now. Having to see him everyday knowing he is Kristin's and not mine will kill me more and more each day.
I remember when we first got together. I knew I was in love with him from the start. So late one night I called my mother. My mother said to call her the minute I knew I was in love so I called. I told her everything and she more or less told me she never wanted to see me again. I ran to Kevin's room that night and he held me while I cried.
I never told him the reason that I was crying. I didn't need him to know. I give up my family for him and then I find out he's getting married. I feel like he ripped my heart out of my chest and stomped on it.
But I still wish I had him back.
He was one of my best friends for over nine years. I loved him. I knew I would give up anything and everything to have him back, but I knew it was no use. I told Kevin everything that was wrong or bothering me, everything except my mother. When I was in his arms I felt like nothing could harm me, like we were invincible. I felt totally at ease and safe with Kevin. When I was in a bad mood he was the only one that could get me out of it. He would always find some way to make me laugh and I would instantly feel better. Something about him just lit up my life and without him that part of me is dark.
He was my boyfriend, my lover, and my friend. He was everything to me, and now he's gone. There is no way I can just be friends with him. It will hurt too much. I just wish some how or some way he would come back to me.
Give us another chance. Because I miss my friend.
The one my heart and soul confided in The one I felt the safest with The one who knew just what to say to make me laugh again Let the light back in I miss my friend
Kevin's POV
I got up from the couch and walked outside to the garden. I sat on the bench and gazed at the flowers Nick and I had planted a few months before. They were beautiful and still in bloom despite everything.
I loved Nick with everything that I am. You might be wondering if I love him why I asked Kristin to marry me. Well you see late one night after Nick and I were together and he was asleep I stayed up and thought everything out. It wouldn't work for us. We were different. We were famous. There was no way that we could be together the way that we wanted. We would never have any privacy. It would destroy our careers and the other guys careers as well.
I could not let that happen. It just wasn't fair to them, but I knew Nick would never understand so I broke it off with him and asked Kristin to marry me. Me and Kristin had been together all through high school so she agreed easily. I'm not too sure how I am going to live my life without Nick. I know its the right thing and I know its for the best but it still doesn't make it any easier to deal with.
I love him. I love every thing about him. Nick was everything I wasn't, could never be. He was like my other half. He completed me in a way no one else will ever be able to do. Nick was the one for me I know it. Its just impossible for us to be together. I wish it was easier. I would give everything for us to be together but its just impossible.
I miss him more than I thought possible and we have only been apart for a few weeks. I miss the times we used to stay up late at night and just hold each other. I miss the petty fights we had over stupid stuff. The walks we took together hand in hand before bed. When we would wake up early to be together. I miss him so much it hurts. It kills me that we cant be together, but Ill have to deal.
I miss my friend.
The one my heart and soul confided in The one I felt the safest with The one who knew just what to say to make me laugh again Let the light back in I miss my friend
I miss those times, I miss those nights I even miss our silly fights The making up, the morning talks And those late afternoon walks I miss my friend